| Location | Thornton |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 17/12/2005 |
| Date of Death | 17/12/2005 |
| Visitors | 1,649 since 27/08/2009 |
| Creator |
Olivia was born asleep on the 17th December 2005
I found out I was pregnant in the May and it was quiet a shock. We weren’t planning for another
baby as my 1st child Eleanor was only 8mths old but we were still over the moon.
On the whole my pregnancy went well everything was normal at the 12wk scan and my sickness seemed to
clear around 15 weeks I went for the 20 week scan and again was told everything was fine.
It’s was around 28 weeks that the nightmare began something just didn’t feel right & I was
leaking a little bit of fluid so my midwife sent me to the hospital. I lay on the table and
explained to the sonographer what the problem was. She started the scan and after a few minutes she
told me all seemed well I thought great just me over reacting but just before she stopped her face
changed and she asked me if all my earlier scans had been ok as she thought there was a problem with
the growth of Olivia’s left leg. I was told to come back in a few days later and see a more senior
sonographer.
I went back for a scan a few days later and was advise there was a problem but they thought I should
start a course of steroid injects to help Olivia’s lungs as they would probably want to deliver
her early. They also wanted me to be checked over by a hospital in Manchester. I started the
injections and went home to await my appointment in Manchester. Over the next few days I came to
accept that my little girl was not going to be perfect but who cared she was mine so what if one leg
was a little shorter!
My partner and I attended the scan in Manchester about a week later they advised me Olivia had
amniotic bands which were wrapped round her hip legs and her hands were fused together. They advised
the condition should have been spotted in the early scans as termination is usually carried out
between 12/15 weeks. They advised a termination would be the best option as they did not think she
would survive and if she did she would have a very poor quality of life.
The hospital then sent us home and asked us to return the next morning I felt like my world was
falling apart how could I make the decision to kill my baby girl who I had carried for almost 30
weeks. We went back the next day and again they advised the best thing would be a termination, they
warned that the pressure of labour would probably make her fingers and possibly other limbs detach.
It was one of the hardest decisions of our lives but we felt we had no choice we could not let our
baby suffer any more. The hospital then injected my belly and my baby was gone. We were sent home
and advised if I had not gone into labour in 48 hours to contact my local hospital.
I went into labour that night and I remember being scarred to death that I was going to give birth
to my little girl and she was going to start falling apart. I was in labour for about 4 hours and
Olivia was born at 3.15am the midwife asked if I wanted to hold her but at 1st I couldn’t I just
glanced at her from the corner of my eye as she lay on the bed beside me. It was then I realised she
was beautiful just like her big sister. She had a small mop of dark hair and a tiny button nose. The
midwife took her away to dress her and I got myself cleaned up.
When they brought her back to me I picked her up and it was then I realised her hands were not fused
together, she had all her fingers no limbs had become detached !! She was almost perfect. I
explained to the midwife that Olivia was not showing any of the signs I was told she would have. The
midwife explained that there had only been 1 band around her and this was at the top of her left leg
I sat with the midwife and undressed Olivia she was beautiful her left leg was slightly shorter and
pulled in a bit but other than that everything looked fine. As her skin was so thin it started to
peel so I stopped and re dressed my little angel and took her back to bed with me. I felt so guilty
for not holding my angel straight after she was born but I was too scarred and to this day I still
feel the same.
On the day of the funeral I had Olivia brought to our home a few hours before the service. She had a
tiny white coffin, which was placed, on the middle of our bed and I spent these hours singing and
cuddling my little angel showing her around our home. These are some of my most precious memories of
her.
After her funeral I had to visit my grandad in the ICU unit of the hospital Olivia was born and
whilst I was their my niece was born so I visited her in the delivery suite which even though was
extremely hard I think if I hadn’t I would have never been able to step into that delivery suite
again.
I often wonder how they could have got her condition so wrong but I never had an x-ray of my angel
so I will never know her exact condition.
My beautiful angel Olivia there is not a day goes by that I don’t think of you when you left a
piece of me went with you I’m so sorry I love you sweetheart. Eleanor. Alfie and me will keep
singing to you and Jack my Angel babies have fun in heaven give Grandad and Uncle Tracy a kiss for
me.
Until we meet again
Lots & Lots of Love Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
To A Precious Angel
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Lighting your candle with Lots of Love. X X
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sweet dreams angel xxx
5TH OCTOBER 2009
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MISSING ~ YOU
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GOD BLESS, SWEETHEART,
LOVE JUDE. X X
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2ND OCTOBER 2009
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Thinking of You with Love.....
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4 all my loved ones
You cannot see or touch me
But I'm standing next to you.
Your tears will only hurt me,
Your sadness makes me blue.
Be brave and show a smiling face
Let not your grief show through.
I love you from a different place,
Yet I'm standing next to you.XXXXX
Words, however kind,
can't mend your heartache:
but those who care and
share your loss wish you
comfort and peace of mind.
May you find strength
in the love of family
and in the warm embrace
of friends.
Deepest Sympathy ...
Love, Julie xx
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GOODNIGHT SWEETHEART,SLEEP TIGHT.
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God Bless
When Angels sense you need them,
And Angels always do....
They come, unseen, from everywhere
To help and comfort you.
They hover close beside you
Till all your cares are gone,
Till they can see you're ready
Once again to carry on.
Then some of them may fly away
And take their gentle touch,
To other hearts that need
The love of Angels very much,
But one, at least, stays with you
As your constant friend and guide,
For Guardian Angels never leave,
They're always at your side.
such a hard decision you had to make, your little angel will be shining brightly over you all, God Bless xxxx
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